Do you ever feel like you get into a major rut in everyday life? I really struggle with getting really monotonous- the bad kind of monotonous- in our routines. I start to dread the next day because I know I will be grouchy the whole time because everything I do seems fruitless.
It's when I'm getting into that sour attitude I eventually realize the reason why I feel so frustrated is because I'm focusing on everything I *do* around the house
Sweeping up crumbs.
Filling seemingly empty-bottomed sippy cups.
Starting a load of laundry to see at least three more behind it.
Picking up, picking up, picking up.
Each thing seeming to be yet another meaningless task.
I get caught up in wanting my house to look neat and tidy all the time. I think in my head, "I'm not asking it to be perfectly sparkling or for their not to be toys out... I just want to be able to have some semblance of cleanliness around here!"
But I quickly get to where I switch roles. I quit being the stay at home mom and focus on being something else... I'm not even sure what to call it. It's definitely not "home-maker" though. It's more like "Virginia's House of Serenity Now- No Kids Allowed" maker.
I don't want my kids to remember that all their mom did was clean or grump at them for messing up HER house. I want them to remember it as home. A comfortable, welcoming home, to all of their things and activities. I don't want them to feel like they are intruding.
Kerry Lynn linked this article about this feeling yesterday, and boy oh boy did it strike home. If you have a hard time striking that balance, or feeling like no one ever notices... read it.
This has nothing to do with the above musings, but I felt I needed to leave you with some sort of picture!
This was a layout I did for AccuCut's CHA-W 2009 booth. I used the new Ribbon Heart Die and also their scalloped border die. You can go here to see some more pictures from their booth!
Make sure to come on by the Noel Mignon message board tomorrow! We kick off our Valentine's online crop in the morning... I have a make & take I'm dying to share with you!